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Bismillahirahmanirahim..
Assalamualaikum people :)

Alhamdulillah. safely arrived ipg this morning and m gonna sit for final examination yo bfore semester break. wish me luck :)

actually. hemm.
As Im publishing this post, im not even 19, yet im gonna b twenty by next year. And yaa few days back when I was at home, marriage is a hot topic indeed haha. So thats what i've been kept thinking about. and to be exact--early marriage peeps! I dunno why but these things just come to my mind. guyss being nice to me. and then I like him. and then I will think about marriage. hoii kiahh. As easy as that??? oh no im not being cheap :/ Tengok jugaklah lelaki tu macamane. err I dunno but now I feel like having a relationship before marriage is kind of troublesome so why dont just get married? huhhh bukan gatal tapi nak elak maksiat yaww.

And the feeling of 'hati berbunga-bunga' is making me sick. tired. and sick. I dun want that feeling makes me go astray from Allah. from Islam :( But then bila fikir pasal kahwin awal ni, rasa serba salah pulak sebab aku tahu tanggungjawab aku sebagai seorang anak untuk serve parents belum terlunas lagi. How im gonna serve my parents if I get married earlier? Sebab bile dah kahwin husband comes first. nak buat ape ape sume kene mintak izin suami. kalau lelaki lainlah. tak perlu mintak approval isteri nak buat pape..

Blerghh asal aku pikir sampai tahap cemni. macamlah parents aku kasik kahwin time belaja. haahaa tapi kalau so-called andai-itu-takdirNya nak buat cemane kan. haha. tapi still, aku rase parah betul ni sobsob. Mementang parents aku sekrang bg green light cakap pasal lelaki :3 Pahtu bapak aku sendiri cakap aku kena cari someone kat maktab sbb nanti bile dah posting susah nak cari. So kena carik lah ni? Heshh baru nak fefeeling kawen dgn someone yg mak bapak recommendkan, tp ni bpk aku soh aku pulak yg cari.huhu..

Dedulu..
konon aku berangan nak kawen dgn org lain, means yg tak same profesion dgn aku. But now I have to swallow the fact that most of the teachers will get married to teacher also. Homai.
Let say lah lepas habis blaja baru aku kawen.. lame lagi. lagi 4 5 tahun. Dah tu kalau ngko nak kawen skrg pun agak agak lah wei. Dah ready ke nak jadi isteri org? Dah kompem boleh jadi isteri mithali?? Gulppp.

Hmm.
Dedulu..
time aku masih sekolah, mak aku slalu cakap blaja blaja je, jgn fikir pasal pakwe pakwe. hmm tapi mak, tu dolo dolo dolo..sekarang orang tanak pakwe pakwe nih, org nak love after marriage. Lagi barakah makk. huuu u_u

Dah tu sekarang aku pon kompius.
Ehh bakpe nak kompius pulakk. Bapak kau soh carik je kiah, bukan soh kau dok pikir pasal kahwin.... Huu dah tuuu waa nak elak maksiat. Berat nanang sungguh.. :#

Rasa itu mungkin tak perlu dicerita pada dia atau dia. tapi luahkan pada DIA. sebab hati kita DIA yang pegang. I believe on Allah's plan as He has a greater plan for me than I cud ever imagine. O' Allah. guide me all the way ya Allah :')

Wallhu'alam.

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Ohh dan. aku dah uninstall CANDY CRUSH kat fon. haha haruslah caps lock kans. gilerr ah king.com p buat game yg bikin org addicted tahap dewa -..- jadi mungkinkah masa yang tak berapa nak lapang ni aku akan ganti dengan benda yg lebih bepekdah sikit? mungkinkah? hohoho.